Day two..I'm surprised I have even lasted this long...
Today I am supposed to write about where I would like to be in 10 years. This is a tough subject because I am a very 'live in the moment' type of person. I do think about my future and want certain things, but nothing is certain and people change all the time. I can say that I would like to be with my amazing man and my handsome dog. Maybe another dog would be in the picture by then as well. And hopefully we will be living in a house and not an apartment. I would like to have seen lots of the world by then. Traveling the world is number one on my list.
Mostly, I just want to be happy, and that's not hard. I am a strong believer that if you decide to be happy you will be. So, I'm not concerned about where I will be in 10 years from now because I know I will be happy. I don't think my appearance would change much, I'd hope to be healthier and in great shape but I hope that for myself now. I will probably have more tattoos because that's just who I am. I know I will still be doing photography. It is my dream to be able to travel and photograph.
As for everything else, who knows. Ten years from now is so up in the air. So is only a few years from now.
That's all.
Tuesday, August 27, 2013
Monday, August 26, 2013
Day One: Relationship Status
I have been wanting to blog more but can never think of a topic or put enough word together to be able to. So, I have decides to take a 30 day blogging challenge. I have a list I will be following of a certain topic I have to blog about every day for the next 30 days. I have decided to do this challenge because, to me, blogging is important. Not necessarily blogging, but just keeping a journal and writing down feelings and thoughts. I do have a journal I like to write in, but I only do so about once a year...maybe. I just find it so much more difficult to write in a journal then to type on a blog. It's still nice to be able to look back on those few journal entries of mine and remember where I was at that point in life and compare it to how far I have come and where I am now. This is why I want to blog. I don't care if anyone wants to read it or not because in the future I do, and I'd like for my future children (if that ever happens) to be able to look back and relate themselves to me when I was their age. Close friends of mine know some of my past so to them it's no surprise why preserving memories is so important to me.
For my first post I am supposed to write about my current relationship. I like this topic. As most of you know, this would not of been my ideal topic only 10 months ago. Going through a divorce was one of the most difficult things I have ever dealt with. (As you can tell from my previous blog posts.) But I look at my life now from how it was then and the difference is like night and day. I can legitimately say..I am happy. I am. I normally am always a happy person, no matter what, but there is an insane difference between being happy on the outside and really being happy deep down. Don't get me wrong, I am an extremely independent person and don't need a man in my life to make me happy, lots of things make me happy. My friends and family have always been a big part of it. At the end of the day when you are able to come home to someone you care for so much and they care for you the same way it's just different. I can't explain it, but it's a great feeling!
I have been dating my boyfriend, Burt, for about 7 months now. I have always known of him because he played in a band I really liked, but it wasn't until just the end of last year that I actually met him. We started spending a lot of time together and fell for each other quickly. We made things 'official' January 25th of this year. I will always remember that date because it was at the Macklemore concert in Park City. That was a wonderful weekend, we had tons of fun and really got to know each other. It wasn't much later we got serious and moved in together. We now live in an amazing apartment in Salt Lake City and have an adorable, big, fuzzy bear for a child. (Our dog.)
I know it seems like our relationship has moved quickly, and it has, but we became best friends before anything. Because of this I think our relationship has been more then perfect. We have so much fun together and have so many things in common, it just makes things that much easier. He supports me and is always there for me. We also have the best conversations. I believe this to be very important. There are still times when we will get into conversation with each other then realize we had just been talking for hours. He makes me feel so good about myself, always telling me I'm pretty and calling me 'sweetie'. My favorite is when I say something about me looking gross or feeling ugly he will laugh and say to me "Quit being weird." I couldn't ask for a more perfect person to be in my life. I really am so unbelievably lucky!
For my first post I am supposed to write about my current relationship. I like this topic. As most of you know, this would not of been my ideal topic only 10 months ago. Going through a divorce was one of the most difficult things I have ever dealt with. (As you can tell from my previous blog posts.) But I look at my life now from how it was then and the difference is like night and day. I can legitimately say..I am happy. I am. I normally am always a happy person, no matter what, but there is an insane difference between being happy on the outside and really being happy deep down. Don't get me wrong, I am an extremely independent person and don't need a man in my life to make me happy, lots of things make me happy. My friends and family have always been a big part of it. At the end of the day when you are able to come home to someone you care for so much and they care for you the same way it's just different. I can't explain it, but it's a great feeling!
I have been dating my boyfriend, Burt, for about 7 months now. I have always known of him because he played in a band I really liked, but it wasn't until just the end of last year that I actually met him. We started spending a lot of time together and fell for each other quickly. We made things 'official' January 25th of this year. I will always remember that date because it was at the Macklemore concert in Park City. That was a wonderful weekend, we had tons of fun and really got to know each other. It wasn't much later we got serious and moved in together. We now live in an amazing apartment in Salt Lake City and have an adorable, big, fuzzy bear for a child. (Our dog.)
I know it seems like our relationship has moved quickly, and it has, but we became best friends before anything. Because of this I think our relationship has been more then perfect. We have so much fun together and have so many things in common, it just makes things that much easier. He supports me and is always there for me. We also have the best conversations. I believe this to be very important. There are still times when we will get into conversation with each other then realize we had just been talking for hours. He makes me feel so good about myself, always telling me I'm pretty and calling me 'sweetie'. My favorite is when I say something about me looking gross or feeling ugly he will laugh and say to me "Quit being weird." I couldn't ask for a more perfect person to be in my life. I really am so unbelievably lucky!
I love you, Burt.
<3
This is at the Mackelmore concert in Park City
California 2013
Monday, August 12, 2013
Vater.
Surprise!..I moved again! I wasn't planning on it but when I had half my stuff moved into the house I was moving into, it turned out that everyone had to be out by the end of the month..so there I was again, looking for somewhere else to live. Only this time I had some stuff in one place and more in another. It was a difficult move, but worth it! Burt and I found an amazing apartment and we love living here! It's called Citifront apartments, but its a new addition so we are the first to live in this section of the apartments. Everything is updated and brand new. And also on the plus side, a gym and pool I have been taking full advantage of!
Since we moved into a little bigger of a place we decided to look around at some animal shelters with hopes of possibly finding a dog. We have talked about getting a dog for some time now but have never had the space until now. We spent a huge majority of our weekend visiting shelters and walking dogs to see which one we would like to take home with us. It breaks my heart to have to put the ones we did not choose back into their cages, they were all wonderful dogs! I wish we could of adopted them all!
After checking lots of shelters we found that the shelter called 'Second Chance for Homeless Pets' was having an adoption day at Pets Mart so we decided to check that out. They had a few puppies and cute little dogs we could choose from, but one dog caught our eye. He wasn't a puppy, but still young. A 3 year old Akita/German Shepard mix, so they said. I believe him to be an Akita/lab mix due to his floppy ears and webbed feet. Either way he is handsome! We walked him around a bit and felt that this is the dog we need to get. We spoke to the lady and found out a little bit more about him. It turned out that he had been a stray and was taken to the Humane Society of Utah but was never adopted. He eventually was next in line to be killed until someone from Second Chance saw him and just could not leave him behind. They have had him there in their shelter for a few months now and he still just could not get adopted. After hearing this I was shocked..I really could not think of any reason not to adopt him, he seemed perfect! So, we did!
Vater has now been in our home now for only a couple of days, but he fits in perfectly! He is a big dog but our apartment is a good size for him. We have a little bit of work to do with him, he is not potty trained. Luckily, we have stained concrete floors in our apartment so it hasn't been much of a problem and he seems to be learning quickly. He also has some scabs from being scraped up a bit and a very sore, scabbed up neck from what looks like him being chained up on a choke collar for too long. And he is VERY skinny! He is a fluffy dog and should be a lot huskier then he is, but instead you can see his spine and ribs really well, even through his fluffy fur. We have him on a healthy diet and hope to see some weight gain quickly. But he is so happy, you can tell! I got attached to him right away with is sweet, cuddly, loving personality. He is our new best friend already.
Since we moved into a little bigger of a place we decided to look around at some animal shelters with hopes of possibly finding a dog. We have talked about getting a dog for some time now but have never had the space until now. We spent a huge majority of our weekend visiting shelters and walking dogs to see which one we would like to take home with us. It breaks my heart to have to put the ones we did not choose back into their cages, they were all wonderful dogs! I wish we could of adopted them all!
After checking lots of shelters we found that the shelter called 'Second Chance for Homeless Pets' was having an adoption day at Pets Mart so we decided to check that out. They had a few puppies and cute little dogs we could choose from, but one dog caught our eye. He wasn't a puppy, but still young. A 3 year old Akita/German Shepard mix, so they said. I believe him to be an Akita/lab mix due to his floppy ears and webbed feet. Either way he is handsome! We walked him around a bit and felt that this is the dog we need to get. We spoke to the lady and found out a little bit more about him. It turned out that he had been a stray and was taken to the Humane Society of Utah but was never adopted. He eventually was next in line to be killed until someone from Second Chance saw him and just could not leave him behind. They have had him there in their shelter for a few months now and he still just could not get adopted. After hearing this I was shocked..I really could not think of any reason not to adopt him, he seemed perfect! So, we did!
Vater has now been in our home now for only a couple of days, but he fits in perfectly! He is a big dog but our apartment is a good size for him. We have a little bit of work to do with him, he is not potty trained. Luckily, we have stained concrete floors in our apartment so it hasn't been much of a problem and he seems to be learning quickly. He also has some scabs from being scraped up a bit and a very sore, scabbed up neck from what looks like him being chained up on a choke collar for too long. And he is VERY skinny! He is a fluffy dog and should be a lot huskier then he is, but instead you can see his spine and ribs really well, even through his fluffy fur. We have him on a healthy diet and hope to see some weight gain quickly. But he is so happy, you can tell! I got attached to him right away with is sweet, cuddly, loving personality. He is our new best friend already.
Vater.
Saturday, June 22, 2013
I can.
Well..life is still moving. Quickly. And in the right direction! Lately, I have been busier then ever, but with doing things I love. I spend a huge majority of my time photographing, volunteering, and spending time with my favorite person in the entire world! During the summer the clinic I work at slows down a lot. It seems that kids don't get sick very often during the summer, and the doctors I work for like to take time off to vacation and spend more time with their families during the warm summer months. Because of this I have been scheduled to work at my job 1 to 2 days a week, if even that. I was really worried at first because, like anyone else, I have bills to pay. But instead of stressing, I kept my chin up with a smile on my face and went on doing what I loved..photography. I have gotten so busy this summer with photoshoots that it has become a pain to go to work at the clinic only once a week. Of course I still love my job and will hold on to it for the winter months, but I am happy I am able to experience the life of a full time photographer for a while. Depending on how the winder months go, maybe I will be a full time photographer starting next year!
I feel I have been branching out a little more with my photography. Normally, the majority of what I photograph are weddings, families, things like that. Lately I have been photographing a lot of fun events. I have even gotten a lot of amazing opprotunities to photograph for Ivory Homes. I absolutely love what I do, and can't wait to see what the future brings! And no matter what happens, or how hard things get, I know that if I keep being my happy little self good things will keep coming my way. I think the biggest lesson I have learned in this past year is that it really is up to you if you want to be happy or not. Once you just decide to be, you will be, and life is so much more awesome! It's just that easy.
Because I have had a little more time on my hands recently, I decided to do something worth while. I started volunteering at the Ching Farm Rescue and Sanctuary a few weeks ago. It's a sanctuary farm where animals can live out their lives how they should, happy and well taken care of. All the animals there (and there are lots of them) have been rescued or abandoned. It's so sad to think about, especially once you get to know them because their personalities really start to show. They are all different from one another and it's very easy to fall in love with each animal there. It's also a lot of hard work. A lot of walking, climbing and lifting in the hot sun, but I have never gotten a better workout! I find it a lot of fun and plan to keep going back.
I had never known there was such thing as an animal sanctuary farm until I watched a documentary called Vegucated. If you haven't seen it, you should check it out, it's on Netflix. I have always been into being healthy and everything, but after watching this documentary I changed my life drastically. It really makes you aware of not only the problems with the food industry, but with the earth as well. If you care at all about any of that, or yourself, please, just take a look. I was vegitarian for some time, then after seeing this documentary I went completely vegan. I have been vegan now for about a couple of months and it really isn't as hard as it seems. I'm not going to lie, in the beginning I did cheat a little bit. But to be honest, since I have been sticking to a strictly vegan diet I have felt so much better. I have also made new friends and have eaten some of the best food I have ever tasted in my entire life. I recently went to the Pride Festival in Salt Lake City and came across a PETA stand and spoke with them quite a bit. This is how I became aware of the Ching Farm Rescue and Sanctuary and found out that they really needed my help. If anyone out there is interested in volunteering you can read more about them on their website, www.chingsanctuary.org.
..I am in the process of moving..again. I know, I know, I just can't seem to stay in the same place for very long. This time I am downsizing even further, if that is even possible. I am moving from my cozy, little studio apartment to my boyfriends cozy, little room. I will be the only girl sharing a house with 4 boys. I have no problem getting rid of anything, except for my clothes, and sharing a little closet is not something I am used to. I can do this...I can. It will be a great thing and I am excited for this move! ..now how to girlify a guys room..hmmm.
I feel I have been branching out a little more with my photography. Normally, the majority of what I photograph are weddings, families, things like that. Lately I have been photographing a lot of fun events. I have even gotten a lot of amazing opprotunities to photograph for Ivory Homes. I absolutely love what I do, and can't wait to see what the future brings! And no matter what happens, or how hard things get, I know that if I keep being my happy little self good things will keep coming my way. I think the biggest lesson I have learned in this past year is that it really is up to you if you want to be happy or not. Once you just decide to be, you will be, and life is so much more awesome! It's just that easy.
Because I have had a little more time on my hands recently, I decided to do something worth while. I started volunteering at the Ching Farm Rescue and Sanctuary a few weeks ago. It's a sanctuary farm where animals can live out their lives how they should, happy and well taken care of. All the animals there (and there are lots of them) have been rescued or abandoned. It's so sad to think about, especially once you get to know them because their personalities really start to show. They are all different from one another and it's very easy to fall in love with each animal there. It's also a lot of hard work. A lot of walking, climbing and lifting in the hot sun, but I have never gotten a better workout! I find it a lot of fun and plan to keep going back.
I had never known there was such thing as an animal sanctuary farm until I watched a documentary called Vegucated. If you haven't seen it, you should check it out, it's on Netflix. I have always been into being healthy and everything, but after watching this documentary I changed my life drastically. It really makes you aware of not only the problems with the food industry, but with the earth as well. If you care at all about any of that, or yourself, please, just take a look. I was vegitarian for some time, then after seeing this documentary I went completely vegan. I have been vegan now for about a couple of months and it really isn't as hard as it seems. I'm not going to lie, in the beginning I did cheat a little bit. But to be honest, since I have been sticking to a strictly vegan diet I have felt so much better. I have also made new friends and have eaten some of the best food I have ever tasted in my entire life. I recently went to the Pride Festival in Salt Lake City and came across a PETA stand and spoke with them quite a bit. This is how I became aware of the Ching Farm Rescue and Sanctuary and found out that they really needed my help. If anyone out there is interested in volunteering you can read more about them on their website, www.chingsanctuary.org.
..I am in the process of moving..again. I know, I know, I just can't seem to stay in the same place for very long. This time I am downsizing even further, if that is even possible. I am moving from my cozy, little studio apartment to my boyfriends cozy, little room. I will be the only girl sharing a house with 4 boys. I have no problem getting rid of anything, except for my clothes, and sharing a little closet is not something I am used to. I can do this...I can. It will be a great thing and I am excited for this move! ..now how to girlify a guys room..hmmm.
Friday, April 5, 2013
utd.
It's crazy how so much can change in such little time, and it's not just 'things' that change, life in general is changing constantly. So do thoughts, feelings and people. It's not a bad thing at all, it's absolutely wonderful! It just means people are learning and growing. That is why it's so important to keep yourself surrounded by positive things and people you love.
I thought, months ago, that I had learned and changed pretty much all I could handle for a while, but life hasn't seemed to slow down one bit. I am surprised at how well I have been able to handle everything that gets thrown at me, and those obstacles seem to get thrown one after the other. Some bigger and more challenging then others, but obstacles none the less.
Despite all of these challenges, I am happier then I have been in a very long time. I am lucky to never be alone with the trials I face, no matter what they are. I am so loved and so deeply in love that is makes all these stupid problems seem weightless. I'm not saying I just forget they are there, that would just make them worse. I just deal with them the best I can while staying positive and happy, which seems to be way too easy these days.
The restaurant job didn't work out..and I am glad! I got offered a job at a pediatricians office and absolutely love it! I think this is the first time, ever, that I can say that I really love my job. I love everything about it, the people I work with and the providers I work for. I would recommend them to everyone I know, and it feels great to know that I am part of their team.
After the restaurant and before the pediatricians office I was jobless for a little bit. Not having a job drove me crazy! I still had photo shoots here and there but the cold seasons are always slower for me so it just wasn't enough. That put me in a bind even further then I already was. Living along in the city is not easy. But like I have said, money comes and goes, it is not worth stressing over!
So I have moved again. I enjoy moving and unpacking and organizing. I find that every time I have moved I end up with less and less crap. It's probably because the last couple times I have moved it was in to a place smaller then the last. But it seems I get less attached to all the crap I somehow accumulate over time...Except my clothes and shoes..you can never have too many of those!
I now live in a different studio apartment. It's just a little ways down the road from the one I was living in. It's an actual apartment building instead of a renovated mansion, which is a good thing and bad thing. It doesn't have the neat victorian house look but I do feel safer at my new place. An actual management company owns it, instead of just a family, so it seems a bit more legit. You also have to have a code to even enter the building. At my old place the front door was always wide open. I also will not miss the damp walls, black mold growing everywhere, creepy neighbors, broken heater, and all the sex bugs that infested the place. (They aren't really called sex bugs but I can't ever remember what the real name for them is. Those black and red bugs.)
My new place may be small..and I do mean small, but it's cozy and warm. For me it is absolutely perfect. It has an old antique feel with old windows and wood floors I just adore. And for it being so small, to add to the plus side, less wall space I have to decorate. And let's just say its a really good thing I never bought that couch!
Since I have been having to organize so much lately, trying to figure out how the hell to stuff everything I own into a closet, I have been coming across lots of things I have forgotten about..like my journal I used to write in. I have had it for a million years and it's still not even close to being half way full. I am really bad at things like that, even though I do enjoy it.
Reading through my journal was shocking. The last few entries in there were about how much I hated life and how awful I felt I was treated. The entries may have been a little dramatic, I did write them while angry, I'm sure, but everything in there was true. It really makes me wonder how I put up with living like that for so long and being so unhappy. I learned a whole lot from that mistake and I am thankful for it. I probably learned some of the most important things because of all that. I know now more then ever what I want out of life. The most important thing is to just be happy, and I have been so happy once I chose to be.
Other then my journal, I have been going through old photos. I miss so many people right now...and my hair!! ..No regrets right?..Time to start looking on Pinterest to find ways to make your hair grow faster.
I heard that your hair grows fastest when you happy. If that is the case my hair should be down to my ankles by now.
I thought, months ago, that I had learned and changed pretty much all I could handle for a while, but life hasn't seemed to slow down one bit. I am surprised at how well I have been able to handle everything that gets thrown at me, and those obstacles seem to get thrown one after the other. Some bigger and more challenging then others, but obstacles none the less.
Despite all of these challenges, I am happier then I have been in a very long time. I am lucky to never be alone with the trials I face, no matter what they are. I am so loved and so deeply in love that is makes all these stupid problems seem weightless. I'm not saying I just forget they are there, that would just make them worse. I just deal with them the best I can while staying positive and happy, which seems to be way too easy these days.
The restaurant job didn't work out..and I am glad! I got offered a job at a pediatricians office and absolutely love it! I think this is the first time, ever, that I can say that I really love my job. I love everything about it, the people I work with and the providers I work for. I would recommend them to everyone I know, and it feels great to know that I am part of their team.
After the restaurant and before the pediatricians office I was jobless for a little bit. Not having a job drove me crazy! I still had photo shoots here and there but the cold seasons are always slower for me so it just wasn't enough. That put me in a bind even further then I already was. Living along in the city is not easy. But like I have said, money comes and goes, it is not worth stressing over!
So I have moved again. I enjoy moving and unpacking and organizing. I find that every time I have moved I end up with less and less crap. It's probably because the last couple times I have moved it was in to a place smaller then the last. But it seems I get less attached to all the crap I somehow accumulate over time...Except my clothes and shoes..you can never have too many of those!
I now live in a different studio apartment. It's just a little ways down the road from the one I was living in. It's an actual apartment building instead of a renovated mansion, which is a good thing and bad thing. It doesn't have the neat victorian house look but I do feel safer at my new place. An actual management company owns it, instead of just a family, so it seems a bit more legit. You also have to have a code to even enter the building. At my old place the front door was always wide open. I also will not miss the damp walls, black mold growing everywhere, creepy neighbors, broken heater, and all the sex bugs that infested the place. (They aren't really called sex bugs but I can't ever remember what the real name for them is. Those black and red bugs.)
My new place may be small..and I do mean small, but it's cozy and warm. For me it is absolutely perfect. It has an old antique feel with old windows and wood floors I just adore. And for it being so small, to add to the plus side, less wall space I have to decorate. And let's just say its a really good thing I never bought that couch!
Since I have been having to organize so much lately, trying to figure out how the hell to stuff everything I own into a closet, I have been coming across lots of things I have forgotten about..like my journal I used to write in. I have had it for a million years and it's still not even close to being half way full. I am really bad at things like that, even though I do enjoy it.
Reading through my journal was shocking. The last few entries in there were about how much I hated life and how awful I felt I was treated. The entries may have been a little dramatic, I did write them while angry, I'm sure, but everything in there was true. It really makes me wonder how I put up with living like that for so long and being so unhappy. I learned a whole lot from that mistake and I am thankful for it. I probably learned some of the most important things because of all that. I know now more then ever what I want out of life. The most important thing is to just be happy, and I have been so happy once I chose to be.
Other then my journal, I have been going through old photos. I miss so many people right now...and my hair!! ..No regrets right?..Time to start looking on Pinterest to find ways to make your hair grow faster.
I heard that your hair grows fastest when you happy. If that is the case my hair should be down to my ankles by now.
Wednesday, January 9, 2013
So far so good
Remember in a previous post how I said I don't have the urge to blog unless I am feeling a bit down? Well..it's been a while because life is fantastic! I just figured I better update this blog since it's been so long and it seems that a lot has happened in the past month. Also, I get a lot of feedback and people asking me to blog again..I think thats a bit odd because I don't even find my own blog that interesting. Apparently I send out good vibes and give people inspiration they need. Who would of thought? But I am glad that people like reading this stuff and if it helps them then that is even better!
As far as the apartment goes, still couchless! Maybe next time I blog I will have a couch. Maybe. However, my place isn't as empty. I have accumulated certain things I needed and have hung a few things on the walls. It feels more and more like home each day. I also have a new little friend living with me. Her name is Dessa. I got her from the Humane Society of Utah a few weeks ago. She is a cocker spaniel mix and is about 5 years old. She has been a very much needed and amazing addition to my life! She loves me more then anything and follows me everywhere..and I mean EVERYWHERE! I get up to go to the bathroom and there she is right by the door. I take a shower and she sits right outside the curtain waiting for me. She is literally right by my side every second she can be. It's a bit annoying, but her unconditional love flatters me. She is the sweetest dog I have ever met. Definitely the best company anyone could have.
She also has weird issues with men. I have no idea why, but so far there have been only a few men in this world she hasn't barked and growled at, or even bitten! So men..beware! She is very protective of me!
I quite the nanny job..yes I know, I just started it not too long ago but it just wasn't working out well. The job itself was fine, I do love kids, but they had their days. I wasn't making quite enough money to get by and it didn't feel like 'work'. A lot of people would say thats a good thing, but I was bored. I missed the busy work, and somehow sitting and playing legos and dolls for hours on end just wasn't satisfying.
I started a job waitressing at Texas de Brazil a couple days ago. I am still in training but so far I like it. I have missed the constant interaction with people, that is something I need. Also, it's been nice because I have been able to walk to work. It's kind of a lengthily walk but I enjoy it. The hours I work are great because I work during dinner time. I have the day to do photoshoots, edit, clean, and take Dess for walks. I feel like I can get a lot more done. But I am not working all night so I still have the time to go out with friends and have fun. So far so good..
I can't believe it is now 2013! Where has the time gone? Even though the year 2012 was pretty much one of the most difficult years I have ever had, I learned a lot about life and myself and I wouldn't change a thing. I so much look forward to what 2013 brings into my life, good or bad! I already feel like it has brought many good things and January has just begun. Bring it on, 2013! I can't wait! :)
As far as the apartment goes, still couchless! Maybe next time I blog I will have a couch. Maybe. However, my place isn't as empty. I have accumulated certain things I needed and have hung a few things on the walls. It feels more and more like home each day. I also have a new little friend living with me. Her name is Dessa. I got her from the Humane Society of Utah a few weeks ago. She is a cocker spaniel mix and is about 5 years old. She has been a very much needed and amazing addition to my life! She loves me more then anything and follows me everywhere..and I mean EVERYWHERE! I get up to go to the bathroom and there she is right by the door. I take a shower and she sits right outside the curtain waiting for me. She is literally right by my side every second she can be. It's a bit annoying, but her unconditional love flatters me. She is the sweetest dog I have ever met. Definitely the best company anyone could have.
She also has weird issues with men. I have no idea why, but so far there have been only a few men in this world she hasn't barked and growled at, or even bitten! So men..beware! She is very protective of me!
I quite the nanny job..yes I know, I just started it not too long ago but it just wasn't working out well. The job itself was fine, I do love kids, but they had their days. I wasn't making quite enough money to get by and it didn't feel like 'work'. A lot of people would say thats a good thing, but I was bored. I missed the busy work, and somehow sitting and playing legos and dolls for hours on end just wasn't satisfying.
I started a job waitressing at Texas de Brazil a couple days ago. I am still in training but so far I like it. I have missed the constant interaction with people, that is something I need. Also, it's been nice because I have been able to walk to work. It's kind of a lengthily walk but I enjoy it. The hours I work are great because I work during dinner time. I have the day to do photoshoots, edit, clean, and take Dess for walks. I feel like I can get a lot more done. But I am not working all night so I still have the time to go out with friends and have fun. So far so good..
I can't believe it is now 2013! Where has the time gone? Even though the year 2012 was pretty much one of the most difficult years I have ever had, I learned a lot about life and myself and I wouldn't change a thing. I so much look forward to what 2013 brings into my life, good or bad! I already feel like it has brought many good things and January has just begun. Bring it on, 2013! I can't wait! :)
Wednesday, December 12, 2012
Love Life.
I have learned lots of lessons lately. As much as I hate the 'learning' process in life, I know it is a very good thing and will never end. I don't really believe in regret..even if it means giving your heart away over and over again only to have it shattered every time. Keep giving your heart away, (maybe not so easily) but don't fear the lessons that may come from it. Inviting new people into your life can open different doors you didn't even know existed. Make new memories, see new things and meet new people. It's amazing.
People are always falling in love, getting their hearts broken, then falling in love again. We will be in love until we die. To me, that is the meaning of life.
Love life.
Last week was the last day at my old job. I honestly had no idea how appreciated I was. It made it really hard to leave. I had a few people actually cry to me and told me how great of a worker I have been and how much I will be missed. It's so weird to think that being there was my life for four years and now it's just not. I kind of feel like I am on vacation and am supposed to be back next week. I guess it hasn't hit me yet. I enjoyed many things at that job. The people I worked with were great, I loved drawing blood and giving shots. (except to little children) But I am so happy to say that I do not have to wear scrubs anymore!
When people found out that I was quitting at the clinic they would ask what I was going to be doing, and when I would tell them I was going to be a nanny I got the same reaction from almost everyone. It was a 'really? Why would you go from being a medical assistant to babysitting??' type reaction. Believe me, if you knew my situation you would of done the same. But I kind of do feel like it was a step back in life..in a way. I went from doing something people go to school to do and make careers out of, to taking care of children. But I really needed it. I wouldn't of done it if I didn't feel like this was a good decision.
I have been a nanny now for only 3 days and I must say that it is very challenging. A lot of people would say 'Good luck!' to me very sarcastically when they found out I was going to be taking care of two young kids every day. But honestly, the kids are great! I already love them to death and they seem to love me too. We have a lot of fun. Today I got paid to put puzzles together, play at Liberty Park all day and feed ducks. And they are always making me laugh. The things kids say sometimes..
The other day I was playing with the little 2 year old girl while the 5 year old boy I watch was at school. She was holding a Jasmine doll (From Aladdin) and she just says out of the blue with a bit of an attitude, "I don't like Jasmine." So I ask why, then she replies, "I just don't like her face." I started laughing then she adds, "I just wish I could throw her in the garbage." It had me laughing for a while.
I think the nanny job itself is great. Taking care of kids comes easily to me, it's something I have always done. I think I am having the hardest time with slowing my mind down. I was so used to a fast paced job where I had to constantly concentrate on certain things, my mind wasn't allowed to wander. And now, things are a lot slower. It's a good thing in a way, a lot more relaxing then what I am used to, but can also be a bad thing at times. I don't really like allowing my mind to wander, and when I am coloring pictures and doing puzzles or talking a walk I can't really help that happening.
Over all, the job is good. It doesn't feel like work at all. I mean, it is a lot of work, but since it's something I am used to and actually enjoy most of the time, it's just easy..so far.
People are always falling in love, getting their hearts broken, then falling in love again. We will be in love until we die. To me, that is the meaning of life.
Love life.
Last week was the last day at my old job. I honestly had no idea how appreciated I was. It made it really hard to leave. I had a few people actually cry to me and told me how great of a worker I have been and how much I will be missed. It's so weird to think that being there was my life for four years and now it's just not. I kind of feel like I am on vacation and am supposed to be back next week. I guess it hasn't hit me yet. I enjoyed many things at that job. The people I worked with were great, I loved drawing blood and giving shots. (except to little children) But I am so happy to say that I do not have to wear scrubs anymore!
When people found out that I was quitting at the clinic they would ask what I was going to be doing, and when I would tell them I was going to be a nanny I got the same reaction from almost everyone. It was a 'really? Why would you go from being a medical assistant to babysitting??' type reaction. Believe me, if you knew my situation you would of done the same. But I kind of do feel like it was a step back in life..in a way. I went from doing something people go to school to do and make careers out of, to taking care of children. But I really needed it. I wouldn't of done it if I didn't feel like this was a good decision.
I have been a nanny now for only 3 days and I must say that it is very challenging. A lot of people would say 'Good luck!' to me very sarcastically when they found out I was going to be taking care of two young kids every day. But honestly, the kids are great! I already love them to death and they seem to love me too. We have a lot of fun. Today I got paid to put puzzles together, play at Liberty Park all day and feed ducks. And they are always making me laugh. The things kids say sometimes..
The other day I was playing with the little 2 year old girl while the 5 year old boy I watch was at school. She was holding a Jasmine doll (From Aladdin) and she just says out of the blue with a bit of an attitude, "I don't like Jasmine." So I ask why, then she replies, "I just don't like her face." I started laughing then she adds, "I just wish I could throw her in the garbage." It had me laughing for a while.
I think the nanny job itself is great. Taking care of kids comes easily to me, it's something I have always done. I think I am having the hardest time with slowing my mind down. I was so used to a fast paced job where I had to constantly concentrate on certain things, my mind wasn't allowed to wander. And now, things are a lot slower. It's a good thing in a way, a lot more relaxing then what I am used to, but can also be a bad thing at times. I don't really like allowing my mind to wander, and when I am coloring pictures and doing puzzles or talking a walk I can't really help that happening.
Over all, the job is good. It doesn't feel like work at all. I mean, it is a lot of work, but since it's something I am used to and actually enjoy most of the time, it's just easy..so far.
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