I have learned lots of lessons lately. As much as I hate the 'learning' process in life, I know it is a very good thing and will never end. I don't really believe in regret..even if it means giving your heart away over and over again only to have it shattered every time. Keep giving your heart away, (maybe not so easily) but don't fear the lessons that may come from it. Inviting new people into your life can open different doors you didn't even know existed. Make new memories, see new things and meet new people. It's amazing.
People are always falling in love, getting their hearts broken, then falling in love again. We will be in love until we die. To me, that is the meaning of life.
Love life.
Last week was the last day at my old job. I honestly had no idea how appreciated I was. It made it really hard to leave. I had a few people actually cry to me and told me how great of a worker I have been and how much I will be missed. It's so weird to think that being there was my life for four years and now it's just not. I kind of feel like I am on vacation and am supposed to be back next week. I guess it hasn't hit me yet. I enjoyed many things at that job. The people I worked with were great, I loved drawing blood and giving shots. (except to little children) But I am so happy to say that I do not have to wear scrubs anymore!
When people found out that I was quitting at the clinic they would ask what I was going to be doing, and when I would tell them I was going to be a nanny I got the same reaction from almost everyone. It was a 'really? Why would you go from being a medical assistant to babysitting??' type reaction. Believe me, if you knew my situation you would of done the same. But I kind of do feel like it was a step back in life..in a way. I went from doing something people go to school to do and make careers out of, to taking care of children. But I really needed it. I wouldn't of done it if I didn't feel like this was a good decision.
I have been a nanny now for only 3 days and I must say that it is very challenging. A lot of people would say 'Good luck!' to me very sarcastically when they found out I was going to be taking care of two young kids every day. But honestly, the kids are great! I already love them to death and they seem to love me too. We have a lot of fun. Today I got paid to put puzzles together, play at Liberty Park all day and feed ducks. And they are always making me laugh. The things kids say sometimes..
The other day I was playing with the little 2 year old girl while the 5 year old boy I watch was at school. She was holding a Jasmine doll (From Aladdin) and she just says out of the blue with a bit of an attitude, "I don't like Jasmine." So I ask why, then she replies, "I just don't like her face." I started laughing then she adds, "I just wish I could throw her in the garbage." It had me laughing for a while.
I think the nanny job itself is great. Taking care of kids comes easily to me, it's something I have always done. I think I am having the hardest time with slowing my mind down. I was so used to a fast paced job where I had to constantly concentrate on certain things, my mind wasn't allowed to wander. And now, things are a lot slower. It's a good thing in a way, a lot more relaxing then what I am used to, but can also be a bad thing at times. I don't really like allowing my mind to wander, and when I am coloring pictures and doing puzzles or talking a walk I can't really help that happening.
Over all, the job is good. It doesn't feel like work at all. I mean, it is a lot of work, but since it's something I am used to and actually enjoy most of the time, it's just easy..so far.
