It's crazy how so much can change in such little time, and it's not just 'things' that change, life in general is changing constantly. So do thoughts, feelings and people. It's not a bad thing at all, it's absolutely wonderful! It just means people are learning and growing. That is why it's so important to keep yourself surrounded by positive things and people you love.
I thought, months ago, that I had learned and changed pretty much all I could handle for a while, but life hasn't seemed to slow down one bit. I am surprised at how well I have been able to handle everything that gets thrown at me, and those obstacles seem to get thrown one after the other. Some bigger and more challenging then others, but obstacles none the less.
Despite all of these challenges, I am happier then I have been in a very long time. I am lucky to never be alone with the trials I face, no matter what they are. I am so loved and so deeply in love that is makes all these stupid problems seem weightless. I'm not saying I just forget they are there, that would just make them worse. I just deal with them the best I can while staying positive and happy, which seems to be way too easy these days.
The restaurant job didn't work out..and I am glad! I got offered a job at a pediatricians office and absolutely love it! I think this is the first time, ever, that I can say that I really love my job. I love everything about it, the people I work with and the providers I work for. I would recommend them to everyone I know, and it feels great to know that I am part of their team.
After the restaurant and before the pediatricians office I was jobless for a little bit. Not having a job drove me crazy! I still had photo shoots here and there but the cold seasons are always slower for me so it just wasn't enough. That put me in a bind even further then I already was. Living along in the city is not easy. But like I have said, money comes and goes, it is not worth stressing over!
So I have moved again. I enjoy moving and unpacking and organizing. I find that every time I have moved I end up with less and less crap. It's probably because the last couple times I have moved it was in to a place smaller then the last. But it seems I get less attached to all the crap I somehow accumulate over time...Except my clothes and shoes..you can never have too many of those!
I now live in a different studio apartment. It's just a little ways down the road from the one I was living in. It's an actual apartment building instead of a renovated mansion, which is a good thing and bad thing. It doesn't have the neat victorian house look but I do feel safer at my new place. An actual management company owns it, instead of just a family, so it seems a bit more legit. You also have to have a code to even enter the building. At my old place the front door was always wide open. I also will not miss the damp walls, black mold growing everywhere, creepy neighbors, broken heater, and all the sex bugs that infested the place. (They aren't really called sex bugs but I can't ever remember what the real name for them is. Those black and red bugs.)
My new place may be small..and I do mean small, but it's cozy and warm. For me it is absolutely perfect. It has an old antique feel with old windows and wood floors I just adore. And for it being so small, to add to the plus side, less wall space I have to decorate. And let's just say its a really good thing I never bought that couch!
Since I have been having to organize so much lately, trying to figure out how the hell to stuff everything I own into a closet, I have been coming across lots of things I have forgotten about..like my journal I used to write in. I have had it for a million years and it's still not even close to being half way full. I am really bad at things like that, even though I do enjoy it.
Reading through my journal was shocking. The last few entries in there were about how much I hated life and how awful I felt I was treated. The entries may have been a little dramatic, I did write them while angry, I'm sure, but everything in there was true. It really makes me wonder how I put up with living like that for so long and being so unhappy. I learned a whole lot from that mistake and I am thankful for it. I probably learned some of the most important things because of all that. I know now more then ever what I want out of life. The most important thing is to just be happy, and I have been so happy once I chose to be.
Other then my journal, I have been going through old photos. I miss so many people right now...and my hair!! ..No regrets right?..Time to start looking on Pinterest to find ways to make your hair grow faster.
I heard that your hair grows fastest when you happy. If that is the case my hair should be down to my ankles by now.
