The beginning

      The very few of you who follow this blog might of noticed that I have deleted all my previous posts and changed everything. The reason for this is because I am starting over. Not just with this blog, but with life in general. I recently made the hardest decision I have ever had to make. My life changed drastically, nothing is the same. I went from living in a big house surrounded by gorgeous fields, mountains, a giant lake right down the road, two lovely dogs, and a husband.. to living alone in a small studio apartment in the middle of the city.. and I honestly couldn't be happier.

      Of course I have my reasons for leaving the seemingly flawless life I was living. I won't go into detail as to why, just know that I am happy. So many people have been e-mailing me and messaging me wondering how I have been doing, I feel extremely loved. I guess when you hear the word 'divorce' you automatically feel sorry for that person, and sometimes that is how it should be. But this isn't the case. Be happy for me. I am now living a life I have always dreamed. I plan on doing so much with my life and I am ecstatic to start living again!

      Don't get me wrong, going through the divorce was really hard. It took so much out of me. I had never felt so stressed and mentally or emotionally drained. My right eye was twitching for weeks, thats how bad it was! One of the biggest things holding me back from making this decisions were my babies(dogs). They were my very best friends, especially one, Kora. That girl always seemed to know what I was going through. She would comfort me while sad, worry about me when in pain, and dance with me when excited. I was always talking to her about everything and she would just sit and listen, occasionally giving me a look like 'duh'. She was always by my side.

      Aside from my dogs, I was unhappy and so was the husband. You must know that this decision was not sudden, and it wasn't just mine. We tried for years to fix things in many different ways, but nothing helped. Everyone seems so shocked about all of this, I guess I just hide things really well. But honestly, if you knew me well before the marriage and you saw how I was during all of it, you would of noticed a big difference in me. I finally feel..relieved. Like a war has ended. I can breathe again.

      As for now..I am going to keep this blog as kind a personal record of my life. Read it or not, it's mostly for me anyway.

      And for all you extremely generous and amazing family members and friends of mine, thank you, thank you, thank you for being here for me always. I love you all. :)

-Jadie